Little kids piss me off.............

Other than that, I think I need to get my life together. I've been fucking up in a lot of things. Not just school, but nearly everything in general. I don't know what's going to become of me in the future. Yeah, that's right. I have feelings. I worry about the future and stuff, I think about what's going to happen after highschool. It's kinda scary for me. I know that there's still two years til it's over for me, but two years isn't really that long when you think about it... Do I really want to join the Marines? Or do I want to go to college instead? Well... college is already fucked up for me... so junior college instead. Hmm... well, this is probably boring the shit out of whoever reads this if anyone. Au revoir.

It would be so great to be emotionless. No hate, love, happiness, sadness, etc. Life would be so much easier. But since I'm not emotionless, the best thing I can come upon is a box of Cheez-Its, a 2-liter of RC cola, a guitar, and a computer.

I've been having this strange gut-feeling that someone hates me, but won't say it. If you hate someone, why bother keeping it to yourself? It's utterly pointless. If you dispise someone just tell them, there's no reason not to.

Anyways... Friday night + Saturday night = 4 hours of sleep

Sunday night = 9 hours of sleep to make up for the lack of sleep the previous nights.

Wednesdays = Tutor... my parents think I'm ignorant and incapable of processing thoughts in my head. They spend a shit-load of money on a tutor that does absolutely nothing to help my grades. My grades aren't shitty because I'm stupid, it's because I'm not motivated to do my work. I know all the material, but I just have nothing to push me to do it.... the song Daughter by Pearl Jam is one fucking annoying song... I hate it...

My mom's away visiting her mother. Yay, no female parental unit for two weeks. My dad bitched at me for not eating because I already ate. I don't understand him, he yells at me because I'm not hungry, and he calls me fat. He forces me to eat. Jesus Christ... I'll eat when I God damn feel like it. When I turn 18 I'm gonna go move in with my friend Justin, he'll be 21 by then. Or I might just move into an apartment or something, but moving isn't as easy as people think. There's so much other shit that you have to do. Hmm... I'm ranting about useless junk, I doubt anyone who reads this would read this far into my post. I don't even think anyone reads this. Oh well.

Au revoir.

Today's special word is: Fathom

Today's special number is: 6

Well... what can I say. I've had so many oppertunities to do it, but I always fuck it up. I get nervous. Oh well. Hmm... I don't feel much in the updating mood. I think I'll just go right now. Au revoir.

Today's special word is: Euphoria

Today's special number is: 13

*Wanders around in a trench coat* Anyone want to see my johnson?
Shitty song for yous people out there.

Let chaos entwine
On defenseless soil
Remove errors of man
And sweep all the weakening kind

I am war, I am pain
I am all you've ever slain
I am tears in your eyes
I am grief, I am lies

Bygone are tolerance
And presence of grace
Scavengers are set out
To cleanse the human filth parade

I am pure, I am true
I am all over you
I am laugh, I am smile
I am the earth defiled

I am the cosmic storms
I am the tiny worms
I am fear in the night
I am bringer of light

Edit: The reason why I think it's shitty is because the lyrics are repetitive in a sense.